The nightmare that learned my name
Like a flower
Not beautiful
Stay away
My mind found a loophole
in its own coping mechanism
The world already broke once.
This feels like asking it to break again.
exhausted
from trying to escape
Counterfeit safety
It sounds like propaganda
played through broken speakers
My bones refuse it
It offends
what remains of me
I carry enough ghosts already.
-Oskar
07.05.2026
The beast meets the machine
It trusts the cut
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The beast
never resisted.
Predestination
is quieter than surrender.
If the mind is a machine
then why it started working differently?
It recognized
the beast
in its reflection.
Friction became language
Rust
is memory
refusing
to become history.
remembering what steel forgets
It cuts the trust
The move, does nothing
The beast recognized the trap
it had
the same anatomy
as hope.
-Oskar
04.08.2026
I Made it Before Midnight.
The situation keeps refusing simple labels.
The day I became most ready to lose, may have been the day I stopped pretending the loss wouldn't matter.
Longing in a closed showroom of fantasies
when viewed in isolation.
without any motion
I will not stay
I will push the fog to see whether the bridge
is still carrying the weight of belief
-Oskar
04.06.2026
The devil is closer to the infinity
than to number 1
we are far apart
a fact is a fact
it belongs to me
he has his three numbers
How can you sleep
when you limit your lies
maybe people,
fire fighter is burning in white
click enter to anywhere
I washed shoes in the fountain
and found a note.
-Oskar
18.05.2026
a private painter in another life
recognizing the strange architecture of existence
What shape does loyalty, instinct, survival, obedience, protection, hunger take when worn?
clinical femininity
someone trapped inside an archetype
Even when disturbing, they are never pathetic
sometimes people attack the mirror when they cannot bear the reflection.
such a poem just a story
-Oskar
10.05.2026
Clinical Observation(14.03.2026)
Clinical observation
if I didn’t something wrong
slowly isolating into
my own metaphor
the dog follows
one part experiencing
one part watching
her loss
my pain
he is
and what’s left
- Oskar
14.03.2026
and one day it left
It's wonderful,
always wanted it to be
the last thing i do in life
this door open behind
locked in a box of greedy truths
it once lived, with no roots
being right, left behind
searching nightmares,
dancing,
It's wonderful.
-Oskar
15.04.2026
It will not end by doing it.
From abyss into the void.
Most feathers don't fly.
Changed one thing.
Changed the whole thing.
Subconsciously Intentionally.
Recognized pattern recognition.
Sleeping is just a quote.
It's not worth a dream.
It will end by not doing it.
-Oskar
09.04.2026
Lucifer
If I could request one person
for a walk,
I would ask for Lucifer.
I would then walk with him
and ask:
“Can I work for you?”
and:
“When do I start?”
Otherwise —
see you in hell.
- Oskar
18.01.2026
Stay Away
WARNING
high voltage
touching can cause
permanent damage
or even
death
keep clear of
rotating machinery
DANGER
high voltage
supervision prohibited
hazardous area
use extreme
caution
touching can cause death
do not touch
EXIT
- Oskar
13.01.2026
Tell me yes when I want no.
Where do you go now?
He is just a man, you’ll lose twice.
Art your demand.
Too good to share, keep for dead.
They are always right, wrong dies.
Leaves and comes with rain,
where people deal with rats
because they have nothing for the devil.
I make you laugh.
You want me die.
I feel so much better now.
- Oskar
04.01.2026
Letter in a plastic bag.
Stay, tell me more about this connection.
Day goes, no sun tonight, just black.
Questioned twice if I’m doing fine.
Almost stopped, it’s a second guess
with an antiplan to not tell anyone.
Stand by no, till it’s good again.
I read quiet, everything.
It won’t stop me
if I have more.
— Oskar
26.12.2025
It is about you and me.
Today cigarettes don’t taste right.
Smoking them like watching a TV series,
but starting from the last episode.
Undefined difference
between now and yesterday.
Accepting rejection
of that broken carousel
yet still making more circles.
It’s patterns repeating differently.
Leaving me with a wish
to have a new pair of eyes,
and teaching
even a piece of paper
can cut like a blade.
- Oskar
15.01.2025
Love for two
I like when there is some water
in the ashtray.
Just enough to kill the fire,
stop the smoke
of what does not serve anymore.
Toxic poison, hard to watch.
It is an ugly mixture
of what is left,
with the function
to end the flame.
Then a thought,
out of place.
Clear to push away,
but it comes back,
like I am thirsty
and have nothing else.
— Oskar
20.12.2024
Creating chaos with dull scissors.
Starting late, in the wrong direction.
Something in my eye —
nothing, just pain.
Falling in line with potential,
trying to function
like an umbrella
that never sees the sun.
I forget —
I’m only here to say goodbye.
— Oskar
25.06.2025
It snows again,
as usual it comes as a surprise.
It snows so much
that I miss mosquitoes already.
They are honest,
they want your blood,
offer nothing in return.
They left, as expected
but like it’s nobody’s concern.
Now it’s just a picture
without the memory.
They will be back,
just wait.
They will come back,
same but different.
They will take
what they want
and leave you again.
- Oskar
22.11.2024
